Breakthrough

“I remember one morning--that morning was a real morning and one

I can never forget--I was upstairs sitting at my desk reading the Word

and praying, and I said, ‘Lord, open my eyes!’ And then in a flash I 

saw it. I saw my oneness with Christ. I saw that I was in Him and that

when He died I died. I saw that the question of my death was a matter

of the past and not of the future, and that I was just as truly dead as He

was because I was in Him when He died. The whole thing had dawned

upon me. I was carried away with such joy at this great discovery that I 

jumped from my chair and cried,‘Praise the Lord, I am dead!’ I ran

downstairs and met one of the brothers helping in the kitchen and laid

hold of him. ‘Brother,’ I said, ‘do you know that I have died?’ I must

admit he looked puzzled. ‘What do you mean?’ he said, so I went on:

‘Do you not know that Christ has died? Do you not know that I died with

Him? Do your not know that my death is no less truly a fact than His?’

Oh, it was so real to me! I longed to go through the streets of Shanghai

shouting the news of my discovery. From that day to this I have never

for one moment doubted the finality of that word: ‘I have been crucified 

with Christ.’ I do not mean that we do not need to work it out. Yes, there

is an outworking of the death which we are going to see presently,

but this, first of all, is basic. I have been crucified : in Christ it

has been done.”  Watchman Nee