...“My fall to the life of defeat that I lived for the next nine years took a
relatively short time. Soon prayer had become a struggle, Scripture
had lost its attraction, unconquerable sins appeared on all sides,
and the emotional awareness of God had disappeared.
I coped in various ways. I read self-help books and how-to books
which all promised to give me one time relief. Those how-to books
eloquently described my condition but sent me away powerless
to escape. The more I read the more angry and depressed I became.
They told me of the great example of Jesus, how He prayed, fasted,
helped others, worshiped, was devout, fed the hungry, and loved--
and then they told me to imitate Him! Didn’t they realize that I wanted
to be like Jesus and I wanted to please God, but I simply couldn’t do it?
Didn’t they realize that if I could imitate Jesus, He would not have
had to come?”
Excerpts from Sidetracked in the Wilderness by Michael Wells